Confessions: I haven’t been using my gym membership much lately. I belong to an awesome fitness facility. I’ve been a member here for a long time. I love that it has group classes, a swimming pool, great trainers and staff, and fabulous programs. I once lost a lot of weight using this facility. 88 pounds to be exact. Yup. I went from 335 (my all-time recorded high) to 247. Unfortunately, as I have explained before, I gained that weight back.
Recently I was looking at my budget and decided that I just wasn’t using this gym facility enough to warrant my monthly payment. So I sent in the cancellation letter. I got a call from my friend who works there asking if I really wanted to give up my steep discounts (I do get a pretty good rate comparatively). We chatted and I explained that I wasn’t sure what good the discount was if I never used the facility. Then….he made an offer that got at my Achilles heel…perhaps some free training to help me get motivated again. I love working with a trainer. I couldn’t pass it up.
The appointed time came and I met with a bright and very skilled young lady. We had an initial assessment and went through a mild work out. It went well. It was hard to face up to the fact that I am once again back at my all-time high. When the week rolled around and it was time to meet her again, I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. I chalked it up to being too busy and too tired and too…. you get the picture. The next week came and I had some work interference (although looking back I’m sure it was just avoidance) so I rescheduled for the next day. Which I also cancelled.
What is wrong with me? I though and thought and thought about my inability to make it to these appointments. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to work out–I still got a workout in. It wasn’t that I didn’t like my trainer. She is awesome. It wasn’t that I don’t have the desire to go. It finally occurred to me that I have an emotional association with that facility that is working against me. Even though I love that place, I have somehow associated walking through those doors with being a failure. That place that I once thrived and succeded and quite honestly was associated in my heart and my mind with my successes is now associated in my heart and mind with failure. How do I get past that. I really don’t want to give up my membership there or turn down four free personal training sessions. How can I rework my emotional queues that are tied to that place?
I’m moving soon into a new complex that has a lovely gym. I plan to use it. I’ve purchased many home workout programs that I like and I plan to use those as well. Do I really need to keep this membership? Probably not. But I don’t want to leave with a negative association planted in my soul. Suggestions?